I’ve always been the type to plan, prepare and then execute. Execution would only happen if the plan was perfect and the preparation was complete. As you can guess, with that recipe, I did much more planning and preparing than executing.
Over the past few months, I’ve let go of the idea of planning and preparing my ideas to death. That’s exactly what I was doing: killing my progress and creativity. I had the impression that all of the articles I wrote and the documents I created had to be about something that matched something else, that matched something else, that matched something else I was doing. It all had to be in a pretty, color-coordinated, matching package if it was going to be worthy.
My creativity was being limited by the “rules” I was placing on myself and my work.
I am slowly learning let go and do things that I truly enjoy even if that means that it doesn’t fit into the pretty little box that I was putting everything in.
I’m finding joy in exploring things that I never allowed myself to pursue because it wasn’t part of my master plan.
I’m finding joy the new friends that have come into my life because I have let go of the idea of perfection and have let myself be more vulnerable and transparent.
I’m finding joy in the creativity that has come back after holding it back for so long because of the fear that it wasn’t good enough.
But above all, I’m finding joy in the permission I have given myself to be whoever I want to be, regardless of the package that I’m wrapped in.